Christina Barrett

Friday, May 11, 2012

Breakthrough

Wait until you see my next videos of me talking. It's like magic. Reality still exists.

2 New Videos of Me Singing

YouTube
YouTube

That's the last of me singing. I might do some talking before I go to bed, tonight.

Old

I seem kinda old for my age, though I look like a teenager. That's natural at 25, to look like a teen.

Babies

It might seem nostalgic. The world is really wonderful.

I can't stand it! :)

Actually, I can stand some things.

I so wish I didn't think a couple wanted me to call their 2-year-old daughter the "n" word online.

I guess it's good to start things early.

You have to mold children to adapt to the world.

Stuff

I'm going to bed within the next 2 hours, I think.

I guess some people are scared.

Some people are really religious and care what will happen to them ultimately.

Early On

Is that actually what someone wants, or is it them copying what other people want?

So Happy

My dad wants me to go to bed early, which for me means not 8 A.M. That's just for today. I have to get ready to go, too, but I feel like I've sung enough for tonight.

Good Fun

It seems the goal in Orlando is for boys to be wacky and girls to be precious.

I'm in biiig trouble. Big trouble. :)

You know how people try to be Chinese or Oriental???

Well, I don't.

I'm gonna watch the new video of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show"

Illusions

I found out what wasn't really happening. Clearly, it's all in my head.

Some people just do certain things to deal with the facts they have to face.

@justinbieber - You're doing so well!

Wow, that was a wonderful interview, Justin! You're doing so well! I'm glad your video is doing so good! You have great prospects, for the future. :)

Okay

I feel bad when people try to make me feel good about thinking a couple wanted me to call their 2-year-old daughter the "n" word.

I wonder if I should tell the police.

So, they're being punished, too.

It's all my fault! D:

Addiction!!!!

People are being mean to kids who are trying to be good.

Oh well, I guess I'll do Twitter 1st.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Oh, if you were wondering why I still use YouTube...

...videos take too long to load on Facebook. I wonder if I should move to MySpace. I don't know how long it takes videos to load there.

Shower

I guess I'll take a shower. I'll be here later tonight, maybe around midnight.

A Tone of Voice

Well, I definitely had a changed tone of voice. I was being overly-assertive, in a way.

Well, I guess I'm gonna start eating supper again, though I didn't yesterday to give my brother private time with my parents on his 1st day back, which was a mistake because I got in a fight with my grandma kinda. She just kept trying to get me on edge, and I didn't feel like being as bubbly and spoke maybe with a little tone. So, anyway, I'm still eating now. Later!

I guess I'll go ahead and eat now...

Ugh

I guess my mom's here, so I can't eat lunch alone. I don't know what I'm gonna do! I think something when wrong and people have to be at me. Mainly, though, I want to give my little brother private time with my parents. If it was just my parents, I'd probably feel more comfortable.

Commercial

I saw this girl who looked like a woman get hung up on a tree. That reminds me of me before I moved to the New Orleans area, but I don't think I'd feel as awkward as I think she did. She looked youthful. It's neat how there's stuff to feel in the New Orleans area.

I also noticed Sophia Grace and Rosie on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" seem similar, which disappointed me. Maybe, they're just like that or just a little.

I feel soo bad.

My grandma did make me feel like I was meaner than I was. I just disagreed with her, and I did talk louder but sounded happy with myself when I said it. I know she did it on purpose, though.

Wow, that was a short segment.

...of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

Kids

Ahahaha. I still look like a teenager.

Sophia Grace and Rosie

Wow, they are so cute! It's interesting they're cousins. The youngest one is actually pretty young. I wonder how kids learn to talk.

I used to want kids soon, but now I don't. :/

Watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show"

I can't believe she just gave a massage to someone. I wouldn't like to be patted all down my butt. I'm surprised it's not illegal.

Today

Maybe, I should have some lunch, after this.

I dunno. I wanna go back to bed. I have barely enough money for if I wanted a vampire costume to see Dark Shadows. I decided not to get a costume because for some reason I got other stuff.

I wanna sing, but, at the moment I'm not in the mood, of course.

Okay, the TV show is gonna be on. It's an hour.

Ughhhhh

Stop with the suggestions. People like threaten others's lives if they're not mean to me. They do it in a tacky way, too. I can't believe this! What is going on? Why do people decide to do this? Did they miss the message?

Woke up Before My Alarm

I woke up to see "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." My dad wanted to get me something I could use to record TV shows in my room. My brother's home, so it's nice to watch it when it comes on, rather than later.

I just woke up.

I was awake for, like, a day and a half, but, for some reason, I just woke up after only about 5 hours. I can't wait until I see my psychiatrist for a lower dosage of medicine that I take every day instead of a lot every 3 days. You know, I don't have to take this. I could not take it, at all. Eventually, that's my goal.

Good Niiiiiiight Good Niiiiiiiight

It all began tonight . . . .

New Video of Me Singing - Adele!

YouTube

I'm watching me singing.

I'll go to bed sometime soon. I wanna watch Grease, too.

This is my 1st time wearing contacts.

I can put them in easily, too.

I got my contacts out easily.

1 More Video Recorded and I'm Finally Tired

What It's Like to Have an Older|Younger Mother

I want to know! I got the impression people with young moms are really dizzy or loopy or something and that ones with older moms lose track of things.

I changed my profile picture.

Oookay!!! I moved!

I'm going to sing soon. 0:)

Arghh

I'm moving to Facebook.

Me Through the Years - Edit

I edited the title of the picture of me at Sea World.

http://cb-me-through-the-years.weebly.com

Me Through the Years - Re-Added Another Photo

I re-added a picture of me when I was maybe 17: http://cb-me-through-the-years.weebly.com

Don't forget...

...that that just means it worse for them. }:]

Part of the Mystery

Part of the mystery of revealing yourself online is biding your audience. I found that people will use any information against you, you know to publicize.

Oooh. I'm gonna watch my videos. }:]

It'll be there as bait.

}:]

I don't recommend watching my videos.

The ones I loaded of me talking today look boring and I didn't watch them.

Maybe, I'll record something else...

For get those videos.

I'm too tired I think, but "The Ellen Degeneres Show" es muy captivating.

Huh

I was also thinking I got lonely a lot. A lot. The. Story. Of. My. Life.

I guess I'll go catch up and watch my YouTubes of me talking.

... my "personality" ...

When I was 9-19, I used to sit with my hand covering my nose or maybe like right now on my mouth. Supposedly, it was why I used to get pimples.

I got so much out of that.

There are some things...

...she seems to think she didn't do on purpose.

I think my grandma...

...I know she did it on purpose and is using it to give me messages somehow.

BIG Problems D:

So, I didn't eat with my dad BECAUSE I didn't take a shower...

Then, I took one while supper was getting ready and then went back in my room.

I didn't eat and talked to my grandma like an airhead and couldn't think. She seemed to feel more guilty. I was so mad about my nose! I still am, but at least I'm alive. I don't think she has the, what would you say, guts to take it back.

I know what my problem is.

I get on a roll and seem to make bad decisions when I'm really just reacting. I suppose I could have other outlets. The problem is caused by things like bad hygiene, diet, and living habits.

Micro-Analyze

So, if I'm proven guilty, though not technically guilty, does that mean it doesn't matter even what happened prior to me thinking a couple wanted me to call their 2-year-older online the "n" word?

Touchy-Feely

Whooh. I guess I get upset if someone makes fun of my relationships. Funny that happened to me before I thought a couple wanted me to call their 2-year-old daughter the "n" word online.

What I'm Doing

I'm watching my old videos and will probably eat and sing some more. I dunno, though, I have to watch myself talking, too.

Where I'm From

I am really made up of where I'm from. I never made much sense out of the New Orleans area...

I'm a very literal person.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

New Photos of Me

Flickr

My grandma called me a young kid.

My parents both came in separately and said hi to me again.

My dad told me how good my singing and watching my singing videos for about 24 hours was. Well, I guess it's not quite that much, but I've been hanging around with a lot of this that long. :)

Both my parents came in and said hi to me.

After like yelling at my grandma who was really trying to make me upset, by talking for a long time in a very low lowering voice, they said hi to me.

What I'm up to Tonight

I'll probably do something on the internet.

Anyway, I'm e-mailing now. I'm at a blank. I might blog about my frustrations. Mainly, it seems to be about things getting ruined.

I think my grandma feels bad.

She tried to sound stern when she said goodbye.

If people mess with me too much, I will attack. I know they can startle me and make me feel different sensations... for strange or no matching reasons? Hm... I dunno, I dunno ... where the path of guilt leads me on. It does do things to me. I think I'm fine. If someone wants something, I care. Like, some people think certain things of me that matter. It's hard to get by like this. I guess some things in this world just get done, and I'm not the one who starts them!!! :)

I just got my tea.

We were gonna have tea together.

My grandma is so mean.

She made me not feel for the pointy bump in my nose!

She started talking so low I couldn't hear, so I yelled at her and hung up.

She always sounds liek

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She called back. Things were going so perfectly until this. Now what? My brother just got home, and I've been especially staying out of his way with my parents. My dad like called me out and said he was just saying hi. I told him my grandma got mad at me for not eating all day and staying in my room singing. I told her I'd eat. Oh well, things got better I guess. She was cornering me with her values of eating.

I'm thinking of letting my brother eat alone with my parents.

I can eat the leftovers. He's home just for school break, the summer vacation. He's also gonna go some places, I think, and maybe work, dunno.

I guess I'll call my grandma again.

Preference Punishment

I would rather be called the "n" word than be molested.

I guess it could come out. I don't want to be responsible for the person doing it feeling bad about doing it, though. I guess they would think it was right because I was foolish enough to think a couple wanted me to call their daughter the "n" word online for fun. I think it was just for in case I did because it seemed they were following me online and trying to make her be the epitome of all I am instead and in situation or something. You know, it's like they have a feeling against me because of my race but don't want to admit it. They even symbolically called me the "n" word for saying something a little awkward or impolite. At least, I think that's what the message includes.