Saturday, May 12, 2012

I had a feeling it was for my brother, alone.

Oh no!

My cell alarm didn't wake me up again.  I was supposed to go out for Mother's Day with my family for lunch!

If I fall asleep...

...I'm loading 2 more videos of me singing.

YouTube

But I did it.

It was really hard for me as a baby

to look younger than my parents.

I thought it was really set up.

I mean how parents are of an older generation, not the same generation.

Are kids today with younger parents crazy?

Are people with older parents more old-fashioned.

Less modern.

Me as a Baby

I think I got in trouble in that picture of me holding my hand out.  That was what I was talking about earlier tonight.  Ugh.  I'm a bit tired|sore.

New Video of Me Singing

YouTube

Aw, time to take off my vampire costume.

I'm gonna pick an outfit for tomorrow and take a shower|bath.

I'm not sure when I'll be back, but I want to sing.

So, as far as guilt goes, my day was a little flawed, though I still got through.  I think things will be better, tomorrow.  I just have to deal with it.

I think me taking a shower and getting ready and doing more singing and talking on video will make me feel better.  Sometimes, I wonder who all is watching this.  I watch it.  It's probably too much for the average onlooker.  It's probably overwhelming to find I did it.  I know that I get better each time I do it, though.  I saw my singing was getting better.  I kinda just want to sit and watch what I did already and maybe not record so much this time.  Sometimes, it's fun to sing a lot.  The talking gets tedious from me for some reason.  I haven't been talking as much lately.  It might have used to have been better, not sure.

I guess I just have to be ready tomorrow.

I regret how the days haven't gone perfectly, for different reasons, but for some reason I'm still holding on.

Okay, I'm gonna go take a shower.

Settled

I'm settled about parents's ages.  I guess you just think of it in a different way at some points, though essentially things should be the same.  I am a little concerned about having an older mother, I guess, though.  It seems like people with a more older mother than otherwise possible often have to go through something else.  I'm guessing they feel more or aren't afraid to feel things and feel them the right way, though people with young moms are probably pretty polished and spick-and-span.

Norwegian Day

So you don't get confused with the party dates if you want to know and look it up, I'll just tell you it's highlight May 17th.

Parents's Ages

I can see little things people with parents of different ages can change for the better that is an aspect of me.

Look what I just found.

I was wondering if Vikings drink a lot.

It could kill you!

I edited this post.

http://christinabarrett--86.blogspot.com/2012/05/root-of-matter.html

Older Parents

Thinking of my parents as older would make me feel like I'm part of a program for kids.  It's because of how developed they are, yet that kids are kids, basically.  With younger parents, you feel more like a baby and not a part of some complicated program where you think a lot instead of live.  I don't know if people with younger parents really live, in a funny way I think.  I'm sure they do.  I think it just depends on the parents.  It's not fun to turn off because your parents aren't old-fashioned with those roots.  It's sad to see the kids of yesterday grow up and not really live.  At least, that's how I feel.

Hllary Duff's Parents's Ages

Father: 2010 - 64 = 1945|1946 - now 65|66 - had her at age 42|43
Mother: 2010 - 57 = 1952|1953 - now 58|59 - had her at age 35|36

That's the perfect age to have kids!  :)

Hillary Duff's Parents's Ages

Father: 2010 - 64 = 1945|1946 - now 65|66
Mother: 2010 - 57 = 1952|1953 - now 58|59

Hillary Duff's Parents's Ages

Father: 2010 - 64 = 1945|1946
Mother: 2010 - 57 = 1952|1953

I'm watching her on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

I was right!

Hillary Duff's parents are, in a way, about the age I thought they were.

For some reason, I didn't withdraw.

I failed 2 semesters at my 1st college, but, 5 years later, they granted me withdrawals.  They didn't give me withdrawals, at first, because the rules were different and I think some of the people there were different.

I came home from college in 2006.

I did a short course in the area in later 2006, and I did college online in 2007 but quit withdrew early on in my 2nd semester.  I failed the 1st semester because I didn't feel well and took a lot of courses.

2005 was a big year for me.

I miss 2004.  It's just the way things were.

These babies would be 7 now.

Where did all the skinny, perfect babies go?

I remember seeing babies that looked like people.  They looked like young babies.  Actually, come to think of it, I think I only saw one of them, but who knows.  They were so smooth and intelligent.  It was a girl.  So, I don't know if I've seen the likeness, otherwise.  I've seen some beautiful young girls and gentlemen.  It's hard to remember.  They seem to have, like, a slimy layer of fat, though.  I mean, I know we all have fat, but it's just this certain look that used to exist.  What happened to all these people?  Have they retreated to their homes?  I can imagine all the beautiful people out there who are not famous and who I've never met, not having seen many active profiles, online.

When I Lived in a New Orleans Suburb

Here's a picture of one of the people there visiting with people int he city I lived in.

Apparently, at least 2 of the people in blue shirts are foreign volunteers to the city.

You can click on the picture to make it big: article

Here are more: picture picture adult at my high school plus lived in Eastern Texas prior supposedly this person picture.

Something else to note is that the Saints won the Superbowl 2 times ago, but they stopped having dance teams at that, too.

Here are people from Orlando: 1 2 3.

Here's me coming home to just moving to Orlando because of a hurricane in the New Orleans area from going to college at the top of the county in the mid east: picture.

As Long as Things Aren't as Bad as They Are Now, for Me

Why do people think being bad is cool?

They think it shows that the world can be diverse in feelings for others so they don't go crazy and to foil them.

Bad Things

They were bad things, but I never said anything too bad to someone's face, like cursing at someone I don't know well.  I don't do those things, anymore.  Sometimes, people like to say bad things.  It's too bad I had the inkling to.  I know I was set up by those who "punish" me.  People treat me funnily, and I had a hard time trying to finish college and didn't.  I'm stuck at year 1.

Akwardness

I got the feeling to say something awkward 5-10 times, and, though everyone knows I don't do things like that, they don't seem to understand.  Ever since I was a baby, people could tell I was not perfect.  Things weren't as cute in the 80s for people like me.

The 1st Time I Felt

I think I was in trouble when I was a baby.  I used to be able to do things without feeling anything, I know.  I guess my mom is like that.  My dad made me feel something, like kind of warm and tired, when he held me because of how I acted.  I didn't like it.  I guess, since then, I've felt things.

Something else, I think my hair started getting darker after this one day taking pictures of me at the playground when it was blonde at the ends.  It seems my eyes turned brown when I was 4 and it looked good.

It makes me curious how others's lives are put together.

I regret my attitude...

...in my last YouTube|s.

I hate it when I have to do a real one.

Because people think I can't make a point because I thought a couple wanted me to call their daughter the "n" word online and I also felt pushed by other people to do it.

Well, I'm gonna do something else, first.

Anyway, see you later.

I'm gonna eat and watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," now, I think.

So, shoot me.

Do you want to know something that became very suggestive to me when I was very young?

She's trying to be like everyone else.

I kinda want a new blog.

Photobucket...

...I can't use the same e-mail address on a new account!  So, I might get all new accounts, though, if I want, I can transfer my blog.

I'll be doing stuff, like...

...I'm making some food and setting up new accounts.

Younger People

People who are about 13-18 right now seem to be made to feel better just because of their age and their parents's ages.

Doing Some Stuff

Friday, May 11, 2012

4 New Photos of Me

Facebook

I'll be here in awhile but might take a shower before I do Twitter and other things.

I have some pictures to load.

Shower

I'll be back maybe this evening and again by between midnight and 1 A.M. if I'm not tired.

I just woke up.

Aw, I missed "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I'll have to watch it tonight.

Fame

So, how can I get famous if everyone knows I called someone the "n" word?

Good Night

I might get up and post something again.

Getting Stimulated

I don't know why I can do that.  Maybe, I get it from my mom?

What's essentially wrong?

So, what's essentially wrong with me following suit in calling someone the "n" word like they asked?

Yup.

Barber

Ooh.

So, it's okay if I call someone the "n" word because I don't matter.

I'm uploading 3 videos of me talking.

The Result

The big result is what's important.  Like, you have to get something out of it.

Getting to the Bottom of It

It seems like it's important that I stay awake and improve myself as much as possible.  I need to get to the bottom of this.

French

I'm guessing my dad's dad's and mom's last names were both in some way French.

Why would you do the same thing twice, anyway?

Practicing something the wrong way doesn't help.

If you don't want something to happen, don't do it.

I guess there's just some things I'll never do.

I'm always right.  Did you notice?

Who cares about certain cultures?

That's not what's important.

Some people don't want to just be silly and happy.

That's just not who I am...

Meanies

People can't want you to be bad just because they believe they should be foiled.

Why blame someone?

I wonder if people were pretending to make themselves look bad.  Why blame someone?

Sometimes, you just have to cut some things short.

and So Easy to Put In

Why oh Why

Some people are so fed to believe they are not something because of their ethnicity mix.

My contacts were so easy to get out.

Words Words

Why would people not want me to realize the truth as punishment?

Also, the issue is that I need to think through things.  It changes my thoughts.  I have to use words.

Breakthrough

Wait until you see my next videos of me talking.  It's like magic.  Reality still exists.

2 New Videos of Me Singing

YouTube
YouTube

That's the last of me singing.  I might do some talking before I go to bed, tonight.

Old

I seem kinda old for my age, though I look like a teenager.  That's natural at 25, to look like a teen.

Babies

It might seem nostalgic.  The world is really wonderful.

I can't stand it! :)

Actually, I can stand some things.

I so wish I didn't think a couple wanted me to call their 2-year-old daughter the "n" word online.

I guess it's good to start things early.

You have to mold children to adapt to the world.

Stuff

I'm going to bed within the next 2 hours, I think.

Me Through the Years

Me Through the Years

I'm fixing a website.

I guess some people are scared.

Some people are really religious and care what will happen to them ultimately.

Early On

Is that actually what someone wants, or is it them copying what other people want?

So Happy

My dad wants me to go to bed early, which for me means not 8 A.M.  That's just for today.  I have to get ready to go, too, but I feel like I've sung enough for tonight.

New Video of Me Singing

YouTube

Good Fun

It seems the goal in Orlando is for boys to be wacky and girls to be precious.

I'm in biiig trouble. Big trouble. :)

You know how people try to be Chinese or Oriental???

Well, I don't.

I'm doing stuff.

I'm gonna watch the new video of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show"

Illusions

I found out what wasn't really happening.  Clearly, it's all in my head.

Some people just do certain things to deal with the facts they have to face.

@justinbieber - You're doing so well!

Wow, that was a wonderful interview, Justin! You're doing so well! I'm glad your video is doing so good! You have great prospects, for the future. :)

Okay

I feel bad when people try to make me feel good about thinking a couple wanted me to call their 2-year-old daughter the "n" word.

I wonder if I should tell the police.

So, they're being punished, too.

It's all my fault!  D:

Addiction!!!!

People are being mean to kids who are trying to be good.

I guess I'll tarry awhile.

tarry

Oh well, I guess I'll do Twitter 1st.

I'm fixing a website.

3 New Pictures of Me

Facebook

I messed up!

A Bit More

I have to change and do my nails.