Monday, May 7, 2012
Out for the Evening|Night!
So, I'm going to the store with my dad. I'll probably come home and jog. Then, it's my daily call to my grandma! I'll be on Twitter by around midnight and probably be up on IMDb and my blog. Also, I'll watch "The Ellen Degeneres Show" tonight after midnight.
Glasses
I got my new glasses, today. I was supposed to get my new contact lenses, but I wasn't using my practice ones and so had to wait.
Crazy
Supposedly, I don't count because I'm a crazy half-Chinese who can do anything with little substance.
Subduing|Avoiding
I guess, sometimes, I just can't help certain things from entering my mind. However, I have the choice not to let it get to me. People think there's always feasible end in sight.
Drudging Along With the Guilt
If only this didn't happen, I might be happy. I mean thinking 2 parents wanted me to call their 2-year-old daughter the "n" word.
I'm not entirely sure if people are over it with me. I think not. I might be able to coast by without interacting much, but people in Orlando always want to interact in a strange way. Actually, it's nice to hear the cars go by, but, in real life, people are funny. A lot of them actually are pretty Orlando cut and polished, but nobody's perfect.
I'm not entirely sure if people are over it with me. I think not. I might be able to coast by without interacting much, but people in Orlando always want to interact in a strange way. Actually, it's nice to hear the cars go by, but, in real life, people are funny. A lot of them actually are pretty Orlando cut and polished, but nobody's perfect.
Feeling It
I've been treated pretty trashily, you know, if someone "feels" like it, since 2 parents wanted me to call their 2 -year-old daughter the "n" word.
I thought it was wrong to be suggestive.
I thought that kids are bad because it's just a mood. I'm not terribly bad, and if I seem so I'm just trying to poke fun, though I suppose there's nothing in it. I feel I've lost freedom. I do want to be good, though, and am happy my parents are helping me achieve that dream.
So, I'm watching "The Ellen Degeneres Show" online.
There are 3 videos from what's going to be today's episode.
There is an African-American lady from mid|northwestern Pennsylvania with 3 kids, but she's a single mom. She's here for Mother's Day week. She struggles and can't pay for her kids at things like book fairs and field trips and feels so bad. Something else is she's so happy she gets to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" every day! Wow, she so deserves to be on the show. Technically, the live studio audience also sees her every day, I presume.
Anyway, so she gave another family a car. I would feel embarrassed about a car. Ever since I was like 11, actually, I've shied away from luxury. I lived in the oldest city in the U.S. and wanted to wear old-fashioned dresses and boots. It became a fixation, and I fasted when I was 16, though it cost me my grades and sensibility at school. Oh, and, actually, it's more like a truck. We started getting nicer things when I got older, and sometimes I felt like grumpy about it. I shouldn't have acted that way. I remember dreading the idea of ever becoming famous and well-known, as well, but, for some reason, now I don't. It does seem sad, though. It's not that I want a traditional job in business. I just want to experience certain things. I don't think I will. Pretty much, if you want to be an actor, you probably have a good chance because people are so open and the acting industry is so easy and there's so many movies and other opportunities, like modeling, when which you could move up to be in movies. It seems like there's not room for everyone, and we focus a lot on what's in the movie theaters, maybe, or, at least, I do.
Okay.
There is an African-American lady from mid|northwestern Pennsylvania with 3 kids, but she's a single mom. She's here for Mother's Day week. She struggles and can't pay for her kids at things like book fairs and field trips and feels so bad. Something else is she's so happy she gets to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" every day! Wow, she so deserves to be on the show. Technically, the live studio audience also sees her every day, I presume.
Anyway, so she gave another family a car. I would feel embarrassed about a car. Ever since I was like 11, actually, I've shied away from luxury. I lived in the oldest city in the U.S. and wanted to wear old-fashioned dresses and boots. It became a fixation, and I fasted when I was 16, though it cost me my grades and sensibility at school. Oh, and, actually, it's more like a truck. We started getting nicer things when I got older, and sometimes I felt like grumpy about it. I shouldn't have acted that way. I remember dreading the idea of ever becoming famous and well-known, as well, but, for some reason, now I don't. It does seem sad, though. It's not that I want a traditional job in business. I just want to experience certain things. I don't think I will. Pretty much, if you want to be an actor, you probably have a good chance because people are so open and the acting industry is so easy and there's so many movies and other opportunities, like modeling, when which you could move up to be in movies. It seems like there's not room for everyone, and we focus a lot on what's in the movie theaters, maybe, or, at least, I do.
Okay.
Processing Your Reaction
So, if someone makes you mad, supposedly, you're bad and can't process your reaction?
Nowhere is all nice.
Orlando itself isn't the only place that has to be bad. I probably had a hard time adjusting.
Orlando is not England.
I always thought it was the reason for my problems. I wonder if they ... no, they literally just want to get it out. They're not mean to me for fun.
Anticipation
I can't believe there is no answer to 2 parents wanting me to call their 2-year-old daughter the "n" word online 1 - 3 years ago and I deleted it quickly. I'm just guilty? Oh no! It doesn't really make sense to me. I just know, if I thought they wanted me to, that's grounds for not even acting like I did it on purpose, which should be forgivable. I'm pretty sure Jesus would forgive me, but Jesus also is a bit strict and probably would give me a punishment, even if I think I'm sorrry.
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