Christina Barrett

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

My dad told me how good my singing and watching my singing videos for about 24 hours was. Well, I guess it's not quite that much, but I've been hanging around with a lot of this that long. :)

Both my parents came in and said hi to me.

After like yelling at my grandma who was really trying to make me upset, by talking for a long time in a very low lowering voice, they said hi to me.

What I'm up to Tonight

I'll probably do something on the internet.

Anyway, I'm e-mailing now. I'm at a blank. I might blog about my frustrations. Mainly, it seems to be about things getting ruined.

She tried to sound stern when she said goodbye.

If people mess with me too much, I will attack. I know they can startle me and make me feel different sensations... for strange or no matching reasons? Hm... I dunno, I dunno ... where the path of guilt leads me on. It does do things to me. I think I'm fine. If someone wants something, I care. Like, some people think certain things of me that matter. It's hard to get by like this. I guess some things in this world just get done, and I'm not the one who starts them!!! :)

I just got my tea.

We were gonna have tea together.

My grandma is so mean.

She made me not feel for the pointy bump in my nose!

She started talking so low I couldn't hear, so I yelled at her and hung up.

She always sounds liek

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She called back. Things were going so perfectly until this. Now what? My brother just got home, and I've been especially staying out of his way with my parents. My dad like called me out and said he was just saying hi. I told him my grandma got mad at me for not eating all day and staying in my room singing. I told her I'd eat. Oh well, things got better I guess. She was cornering me with her values of eating.

I'm thinking of letting my brother eat alone with my parents.

I can eat the leftovers. He's home just for school break, the summer vacation. He's also gonna go some places, I think, and maybe work, dunno.

I guess I'll call my grandma again.

Preference Punishment

I would rather be called the "n" word than be molested.

I guess it could come out. I don't want to be responsible for the person doing it feeling bad about doing it, though. I guess they would think it was right because I was foolish enough to think a couple wanted me to call their daughter the "n" word online for fun. I think it was just for in case I did because it seemed they were following me online and trying to make her be the epitome of all I am instead and in situation or something. You know, it's like they have a feeling against me because of my race but don't want to admit it. They even symbolically called me the "n" word for saying something a little awkward or impolite. At least, I think that's what the message includes.

Things to Talk About

I don't like taking an opportunity of a bad situation, like giving it attention. My life is set up to be pretty complicated. There are lots of things to talk about. I know people won't like to talk about my problems.