Tuesday, May 8, 2012
The Store
I was going to go exchange some things, but now I don't know if I have to. Maybe, I'll wait and see.
I've been sleeping.
I might go to the store tonight. I'm still tired, but I might go jogging. I'm also calling my grandma, as I do every night. So, as usual, I'll be online and watching TV around midnight. Tomorrow, my brother is coming home from college, and I don't know when he'll be up. So, I'm not sure when I'll be watching TV. Hopefully, I will start to be awake during the day. I do like being up at night, though.
I'm really all for being rich, though.
I've already decided that. I just want peace and to be out of trouble. Like, it'd be nice to have a big place all to yourself. It'd be nice to not have to work. You'd be away from people. I would fear people who I see in services, though.
Not Doing Things in an Attractive Way
I know I can't always turn on because it's hard, but I exercise and eat well.
Skin Color
My skin can look tan or light. For some reason, the flash is making it look pretty light. My hair is pretty dark. My hands are pretty dark, though. It's fine, though. I like being dark and light. I always thought people liked to be light, naturally. I suppose models would be dark. It must be hard to get an acting job if you're light, but I dunno. I think people would be interested in people with very light skin, too. I wanted to be light at one time, but then I was zealous over being dark. So, now, I'm not as light. Though, I see my picture I look white. Before, I was pink, though. I remember seeing in the news pink politicians, but now are they all tan? That's too bad. I guess whoever ran with Sarah Palin was pink, but Sarah is tan but with brown hair. I bet, if she didn't live in Alaska, she'd have darker hair. I did have even fairer features at the time when I was up north. I came back with fairer features.
You know what they said on "Hardball" once?
Will the real Mitt Romney (sp?) please stand up.
Did you ever hear of the song|rap, "Will the real Slim Shady, please stand up, please stand up, please stand up?" It's from 2000. Not too far behind its time.
Did you ever hear of the song|rap, "Will the real Slim Shady, please stand up, please stand up, please stand up?" It's from 2000. Not too far behind its time.
Awareness of the Past
I can't do that. I can't stand that.
All my problems come from racism and making me feel tippy. I do weird things. I don't know what to do because I haven't taken care of myself. I used to have certain goals. I learned I was bad because I both wasn't white and was privileged, the 2 going together. So, I didn't have those goals anymore. I was unaware. I get surprises. These things are all things in my head, though, nothing real.
All my problems come from racism and making me feel tippy. I do weird things. I don't know what to do because I haven't taken care of myself. I used to have certain goals. I learned I was bad because I both wasn't white and was privileged, the 2 going together. So, I didn't have those goals anymore. I was unaware. I get surprises. These things are all things in my head, though, nothing real.
Okay, I just finished watching "The Ellen Degeneres Show."
Wow, it was neat seeing all those people.
Empathy
I feel so bad. I got some store credit cards, where you spend money and pay later like $50 a month. I thought my parents would pay, but they don't have the money to spare for it. So, it's just a bill I owe that I have to pay if I work. Anyway, I have stuff I shouldn't have... I'll never know what it is to be poor. It's not the same. It's not the same as earning it or knowing what you need.
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