Things That Enter the Realm of My Mind

I find that, if I don't want to curse but curse words keep entering my subconscious, it only comes hard like once a lot of times and then I forget it.  Sometimes, it pops up after something happens.  What doesn't work also is going around thinking about others, "You're NOT *beep*."  They know it comes up.  Sometimes, I don't think anything, and then "You're *beep*," comes up and I have to fix and say "not."  That's often a light onset.

Things only enter me at a somewhat shallow level.  I notice now for some reason it's actually quite thick and solid instead of more abstract and spacious.