Anticipation

I can't believe there is no answer to 2 parents wanting me to call their 2-year-old daughter the "n" word online 1 - 3 years ago and I deleted it quickly.  I'm just guilty?  Oh no!  It doesn't really make sense to me.  I just know, if I thought they wanted me to, that's grounds for not even acting like I did it on purpose, which should be forgivable.  I'm pretty sure Jesus would forgive me, but Jesus also is a bit strict and probably would give me a punishment, even if I think I'm sorrry.